orange swirls on the purplish-blue morning sky...
18 sticks of Pall Malls to waste...
no wonder i've got a smile.
like a shout in the ear, i just realised it's already the third day of the 7th month of the year. common sense mathematics would lead us to realise we've only got 181 days left to prove our worth as productive beings. to be honest, i certainly haven't been the most progressive of my kind. not in terms of material gain, at least.
it just dawned upon me that this second half of the year will be more instrumental in determining my happiness on the last day of 2004. preferably ending off the year on a high. i imagine myself to be in the company of new acquaintances, close mates and best friends, all lost in merry-making with the help of our respective preferred snakebites and invigorating bodyrock pumping out from the technicolour setting...... with a special someone by my side, hopefully.
that, of course, is only how i imagined it to be.
i've got 5 more months to wish hard upon that to make it come true.
but as it is, June has just passed and here comes July. thinking back, i really haven't got a clue how i can sum it all up without being too vague. 'cos it really has been such a hazy month. there's only so much you can think of when the scale of shit and blessings are well balanced. i clearly remember i was living in a bad dream somewhere around this time last month. but now it seems the supposed swansong sounds more like one for a warpath. and boy does it feel good.
heaven knows if it's because of a change in the planetary configuration, or simply because i'm just optimistic by default, but i have to attribute this positive state of mind to the unexpected arrival of, yes, Miss*SparkLE.
no prizes for guessing that one.
in a month which started out like a scene out of a B-grade horror flick, her virtual presence really helped me get through a time of disorientation and mental transition. everytime. when everything around my four walls formed a blur, all it took to cast out the excess mental baggage was just a simple mail from her. just one. i know it sounds oh-so-pretty-you-just-wanna-cringe, yes...... but really, that's how it is. man, i can't even begin to imagine how it'd be like if she wasn't in the picture. i reckon i'd be running on placebos just to pass the time......
it's been approximately a month since we first came into contact, and i must say things are, well, very different now. let's just say i've never been this happy in such a long time. and we haven't even gone out yet. we've got so many plans...... and just about time, as well. her cast will be taken off later today and she'll be back in Singapore by Tuesday.
if only you can see the size of my smile right now.
it's gonna be one hell of a month, alright......
i guess it's that feeling of belonging. it's that familiar tingle you feel after wandering around searching for it for so long. it's that warmth only a certain special someone can give. and when it comes, you just know. you just bloody know.
i think mine has just arrived.
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You deserve a medal for this. And teh peng as well. Thank you.