Wednesday, February 02, 2005

this is it. this has to be it.

my head is officially caught in an unprecedented mess, my insides has developed a habit of detaching itself, my conscience has lost all respect for priorities and i find myself close to tearing everytime i think of her.

i have a whole week's worth of assignments i haven't touched, a band to sort out by next week and a girl whom i'll miss so much.

one would say that i brought all this upon myself. true. but i have to say i've never wanted anyone to suffer. anyone. and that includes my own self. you might not see just what is happening and it is the most shittiest feeling ever in the history of communication that i can't tell you how i feel. and so you'd never know.



i need to get away from all of you happy people.
i need to be alone for a long while.
i need to stop wishing it wasn't like this.
i need to stop hoping for an angel to descend.
i need to find the pieces that were missing.
i need to start telling myself it's gonna be okay.
i need to stop crying in the middle of dinner.
i need to put aside that Kodak moment of you and i.
i need to introduce my head to a wall.
i need to stop listening to Gravity and wish i was in the video.
i need to buy me a new life.
i need to make the tingles last.
i need to learn how to smile again.



i need love to come back.



i really need love to come back.


bedroom*hair @ 12:45 pm

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